Year 2 of Forever: A new beginning.

It’s our 2nd wedding anniversary and I’m thinking I probably shouldn’t have tasked myself to write a post every anniversary because this year, I’m not sure what to say.

I watched a lot of Disney movies as a child. Almost everyone of them ended up with the characters falling in love, getting married and living happily ever after. Subconsciously, that taught me that marriage was a finish line. It was the perfect ending to every love story.

In the waiting, there was Jesus

Infertility...it hurts even typing it. Mahn, dealing with infertility is unexplainable unless you have gone through it or are going through it. The countless Doctor's appointments...the hope every ovulation...the hopelessness after every negative pregnancy test...the feeling of grief after an ectopic pregnancy...the desire for the world  to stop for you to mourn....the heavy tears on mother's day in church...the fear that you will never be enough for your husband...the hopelessness on the Doctor's face when he tells you not to even bother with IVF.

Talk Thirty To Me…

I have been looking forward to my 30th birthday since I turned 25. At 25, my life had just turned upside down and I thought I’d have it all figured out by 30. So I have been patiently waiting for this day for 5 years now.

Guess what? It’s here and I don’t have it all figured out and it’s taken me 5 years to realise that it’s totally fine (and normal) to not have it all figured out. I’m not waiting for 35 or 40 or 50 to enjoy the life I have now. 

I have a few things figured out though: